chapter 53

Jungkook stared at the person in the video for quite a well and then looked at the same person besides him. Taehyung was holding his hand and Jungkook put other hand on his own chest and clenched it. His heart pained for the love of his life. He was beginning to hate himself for hurting everyone, for hurting his love in this cruel way. He hated having to put everyone he loved and all those who loved him in this situation where they all were helpless.

“Jungkook-ah, actually, I think I am thankful for Jeongukk. I did love till the very last moment until I knew he was dead. To be honest, I realised that I didn’t feel that bad on hearing the news of his death. Maybe because even though I loved him dearly, my heart had already gotten used to his absence. But it’s not the same with you. I can never get used to your absence, now that I have known you.” Taehyung said all with a smile.

“You know what, I hate you. And I do have the right to hate you. Because I will be the one left behind. I have deal with our moments together which aren’t that many. I have to deal with your absence which is going to haunt me every single time. I am not yet ready to let you go. I don’t know, but you warmed my cold heart with you love. And now I am afraid to go back the way alone where we walked together. It’s foolish of me to even blame you when this was already a part of our life. It was our fate. Our destiny you can say. Maybe we were destined to have each other by our side only for this long. Maybe our love was already destined to be upto here.” Taehyung said and a teardrop made its way on his cheeks. 

Jungkook turned to Taehyung who was sobbing quietly.

“Don’t do this to me, please Tae. It already pains me to see you this way. I never wanted all of this. I was born with it. I really want to stay back with you. I really do.” Jungkook said and hugged Taehyung very tightly.

At this moment, everybody had tears in their eyes.

“I know you  will cry now. But I am sorry to make you cry. I can’t help it. I dared to love again even after going through so much. It was difficult to put Jeongukk in the deepest corner of my heart. It was hard to love you, because I felt I cheated on Jeongukk. But then when I knew that you have his heart, it didn’t really matter much. And now, I am here again, preparing myself to say goodbye to you. This time for sure I am losing both of you. I am losing faith in love. I am breaking from inside. I am really scared to live the life and in the world when you aren’t by my side. How do I live, Jungkook-ah? How do I live? I really hate this. I am not saying my farewell, no. I can’t. I am sorry. I love you, my love.” And with that Taehyung broke down on the screen in the video as well as in Jungkook’s arms.

The pain, the hurting, the stress, the feelings intensified with every sob that was heard in the room and nobody realised Jungkook’s nose  bled until Yugyeom…

“Jungkook, Jungkook… why is your nose?” He yelled and Taehyung quickly pulled back and saw Jungkook.

Jungkook wiped the blood with his handkerchief. Yugyeom remembered that these few days they will have watch out for all of these as the doctor said and he just placed a hand on Taehyung’s shoulder who realised and wiped his tears and gave Jungkook a smile.

“I am sorry, just got carried away. Are you okay? Are you hungry? Do you wana rest for a while?” Taehyung  asked Jungkook who said no in reply.

“I am fine. Promise.” And with that they continued chatting about some random topics.

At last, it was Yugyeom’s turn but he somehow avoided it. He even took the CD out from the player and hid it in his jacket. He didn’t want to be the reason for Jungkook’s pain again. He knew that him saying his farewell will hurt Jungkook more than anyone else. 

But he was unaware that he was being watched while doing it, by none other than Jungkook himself. Unaware of being watched he quickly yitted his tears and smile again and came and sat behind Jungkook. And Jungkook who watched this, tried his best to hold back and decided to play along. 

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