Ye Jian’s hands were trembling. If grandpa had an accident because of her, what could she still fight for in her life?
“Don’t worry, don’t worry, I’m fine, I’m just suddenly short of breath because I’m sad, don’t be afraid, don’t be afraid.” The old gentleman who returned to breathing smoothly felt his granddaughter’s panic and said kindly, “Don’t worry, I’m all right, don’t be afraid. I still want to live until 110 years old, okay.”
The old man was 88 years old this year, and he had only 22 years to reach 110 years old.
“Your dad has a deep affection for your mother. He only had two things in his mind in the past 20 or more years. One is to find your mother, and the other is to do a good job in the tasks that the country has entrusted to him. These two things have been his goal for more than 20 years. His fulcrum of life, the two coexist indispensable.”
“Now you are back, but your mother is gone… My child, you, don’t be afraid that your dad won’t be able to accept it. You’re back now, and he has to take up whatever the consequences too. He has lost your mother; he can’t possibly want to lose you too.”
“I know what you are worried about. You’re afraid your dad will be too sad. Do you think he might not be able to take it and decide to end his life? Foolish child. In life, we will never be completely satisfied. Out of 10 things, at least 9 things will fail, but the only thing that has been accomplished, that will be the pillar of the person’s life and the driving force for his survival.”
“And your return is my motivation to take good care of my health and your father’s motivation to keep on living. This world is fair. With one person gone, another person is added.”
“Your dad is not stupid; he is smart. You haven’t mentioned your mother this whole time; I’m sure he already has the answer in his heart. I also told him today to not be too persistent. We must live looking forward; even if we want to guard the past, we must still live in the present.”
There were too many unsatisfactory things in the old man’s life. If he had not been open-minded, how could he have survived until today?
He did not demand, did not ask for too much, did not treat himself harshly, did not embarrass others…… These were the old gentleman’s perspectives in life.
Ye Jian felt relieved after receiving the old gentleman’s advice. Then she would find a chance… to tell her father the truth clearly tonight.
“Thank you, grandpa, and sorry for making you worry about me.” Ye Jian glanced at the desk slightly and saw a thick book with ten pages of draft paper pressed underneath. The exposed corners were filled with writing. She knew in her heart that the old man must have been checking some information and taking notes just now.
Computers had not been popularized in every household. Although they had a computer at home, Grandpa rarely used it. He still preferred writing notes.
Ten pages of draft paper… He must have used hours to write them.
Ye Jian massaged his shoulders to relieve his fatigue.
The old gentleman closed his eyes and enjoyed his granddaughter’s massage. He laughed, “You, are you surprised? Don’t worry, I’m fine, and I’m not worried; on the contrary, I feel very happy.”
“In the past, even if I wanted to worry about these things, I had no one to worry about. So I must remember your affairs. Otherwise, I will feel that my life has been in vain.”
Speaking of this, Ye Jian felt sour again.
Grandpa had dedicated his whole life to the country, but in the end, he lived alone in a small foreign-style house, with no close relatives by his side, just living alone and coldly.
“Then I’m afraid that there will only be more things that you have to worry about in the future. When the time comes, you better not say that I am annoying.” Ye Jian, who loosened the old man’s shoulders, teased with a smile. With a brisk voice, full of sorrow, she continued, “Just you wait for a few years; I’m really afraid that you will have a lot to worry about.”
