The death of his wife was tantamount to Fu Yusheng’s persistence for more than 20 years in searching for his wife. And this news had abruptly cut him in half without seeing blood. From now on, he was no longer complete and would always be just a half.
He looked at Ye Jian, but he wasn’t really looking at her. His eyes were a little distracted.
His daughter’s surname was “Ye,” not “Fu.” He thought that perhaps his wife had married someone else and didn’t dare to show up in front of him, and even more so, not wanting to see him ever again.
He thought if that was the case… never mind, he could accept it. He could just look at her from afar and hope that she was doing fine; he wouldn’t bother her.
He only thought of doing that much, and he only dared to do that much.
He didn’t dare to think about other possibilities for fear that he was thinking too much.
What the old man said during the day had already sounded the wake-up call for him, but he didn’t even dare to think about it.
As long as she was living well, he really dared not ask for anything else.
He would let go of his attachments, let go of the past, and live with his daughter in the future.
However, the last thing he wanted to know still happened in the end.
His beloved woman, his beloved wife, passed away more than ten years ago.
“I said I would marry her so that she will live a good life and do whatever she wants in the future. Your mother must have thought of me as an unreliable man and that I never stay true with my words. She had probably thought of me just casually making promises and forgetting about the promises I made.”
“Hong Mei must have been complaining about me. She didn’t even say a word, not even a goodbye… she just disappeared. On the day we received our marriage certificate, she must have waited from the time we agreed to until the sunset.”
“Your mother, she is usually gentle and graceful, but she is actually a woman who can endure hardship. Out of so many female soldiers, she was the only one selected to be the first special female soldier in our country. You don’t know how good your mother was, especially her marksmanship. The chiefs in the army always complimented her, and no male soldiers could beat her.”
“Such a powerful female soldier was chased by a weak scholar like me. I clearly promised that she would live a good life with me. As a result, I disappeared on the day we got our marriage certificate. She must be so sad, and she must have hated me so much.”
Sitting on the opposite side, Ye Jian’s eyes were red. After hearing Father Fu’s last sentence, “She must have hated me much,” Ye Jian desperately shook her head with tears in her eyes, “No, no, mother didn’t hate you. She really didn’t hate you…” She was just disappointed.
“I have waited for him since morning, waited and waited, and waited until the sun went down until the day turned dark, but he still hasn’t come yet…”
“I’ve not heard any news from the one I love anymore, as if he had disappeared. You disappeared, but I am pregnant. You left your blood to remind me that being in love with you was not a dream…” Ye Jian gently repeated what her mother had written in her diary; her voice was soft, like the evening breeze in summer, like the snow breeze in the twelfth month of winter.
Hearing what his deceased wife wrote in her diary, the Chief Engineer of the Missile (Ammunition) Research And Development had a miserable expression. He clenched his fists until his fingers wanted to pierce through the skin but did not let go.
His eyes were red. He looked as if there were tears streaming out of his eyes, but there was never a single tear.
Fu Yusheng, the Chief Engineer, had never cried, nor had his eyes reddened even when he had to face the injustice at that time. Now, because of the words in the diary of his deceased wife, this dignified Chief Engineer of Missile (Ammunition) Research And Development had swollen teary eyes.
He didn’t cry, but Ye Jian felt that he was crying, deep inside his soul.
The real sadness was not the kind that could be shown outside, but it was pressed hard in the heart, unable to let out.
Because there was no way to vent the sadness in the heart.
