Alone. I was always alone.
“I’m sure if you just speak to others, they’ll all be your friends.”
It was the same thing I was told every time I spoke to my teacher of my dilemma. However it was all a lie.
“That girl tried to talk to me again.”
“Eh?! Eww, gross. You mean that weird one that always hide in the corner, reading those creepy books?”
No matter how much I tried, I would just be pushed away. The kids in the class, the teachers. Everyone…everyone…
Why?
Why was it just me?
What did I ever do to always be looked at like so? In the eyes of the entire class, why was I the outsider?
I was never given an answer. Instead the days passed by as I was continuously pushed away. I don’t remember when it was that everything went numb, that I started to feel nothing but the ravenous loneliness that grew with each passing moment.
I…please…I don’t want to be alone.
“It’s that creepy girl.”
“Whoa…she really is freaky, yikes.”
They all look at me with such contempt. In their eyes, I was worse than trash. Why? Why? Why Why Why?!
Please…someone please tell me why? Why do you all look at me like so?! What is wrong with me that you must treat me this way?!
“Ge-get away from me you freak! Ahh!“
“I’m afraid Ryuuko has caused some problem in class. Please, I think it would be best if you talk to her.”
No, I’m not wrong! You’re all wrong! I’m not a freak! All of you are! And I hate you all! Hatehatehate HATE YOU!
I hate you all so much…but, most of all the one I hate is…
“Did you hear what happened to ******? I heard it was all because of that girl.”
“She really is crazy. Better stay away from her.”
“Umm…Ryuuko, maybe it would be best if you separate yourself from the class today? It’ll just be this one time.”
…Please…please stop looking at me like that…I beg of you. Please…just leave me alone…
Alone…I’m so alone…
“Hello.”
Huh?
“It is nice to meet you, what is your name?”
I-I’m…
