“However, you have to change how you deal with these emotions that will affect our judgment!”
“Anger can be turned into fuel, sadness turned into motivation, tears turned into dauntlessness, sorrow turned into valiantness! If you combine them together, you can take this as ‘every sacrifice is fuel for our motivation, to pass on the dauntless, bold spirit of not fearing sacrifice of our fallen warriors, to use the guns in our hands to continue defending our nation! And that is the best offering you can give to all of the fallen heroes!”
“Confronted with cruel events, you can only face it head-on, you must confront it seriously! I’m repeating this once more, Ye Jian, if someday I died, or if you died, the best offering for the fallen heroes is for the one still living to use the gun in their hands, to fire out bullets, and hit all the evil in this world!”
Those words were like a vast bomb tossed into Ye Jian’s heart, the shockwave from the explosion ruthlessly crushed her soul, turning it into fragments. Under his frigid tone, her splintered soul was pieced together again, putting together a complete Ye Jian who had been rebirthed from the fires of the explosion.
The best offering for fallen heroes was to pick up the gun in her hands, fire out bullets that hit evil! That was the best offering!
Ye Jian drew in a deep breath; she was fundamentally someone with a quick mind and a personality that was extremely good at learning. Her inner nature also possessed a strong soul that had experienced many difficulties. After being roused by Xia Jinyuan’s speech, she very quickly walked out of the bloody memory that she was not inclined on remembering.
“Normally, you would be able to walk out of it even without my advice. The wilderness survival exercise that lasted fifteen days is fundamentally a challenge to your mental and physical limits. When you walked alone, it seemed like the whole world was the rainforest you were alone in, and that had affected your psyche somewhat.”
“Furthermore, a comrade you had known was killed in battle. Since you hadn’t experienced this before, having a hard time accepting that fact is very normal.”
“We too have experienced sacrifice, we left with ten people, but only nine returned, of the nine who returned, I locked myself in my room and hadn’t gone out for two days. G3 plunged headfirst into the training field; he trained himself to the brink for 24 hours continuously, until he collapsed from exhaustion. J5 recited military discipline and military laws for one day, Han Zheng, that chap, suspended himself from a tree, and in the end, the military was alerted and thought he had been carried away by a tiger.”
“We all have your emotions. However, we were already way past the military age for psychologists to console us. Every one of us had our own ways to relieve the stress in our hearts. After cleaning ourselves for a couple of days, when we come out of it, we still look human.”
Ye Jian’s present behavior was already not bad. Negative emotions like fear or cowardice that were taboo for special forces soldiers did not arise when faced with death; she was only sad and sorrowful… these were normal emotions when faced with the death of a comrade, being able to act like she was acting now, that’s already a great feat.
“Captain Xia, you’re really like a hydrangea. After what you said, my heart feels really easy now.” Finally, Ye Jian had wiped away the last layer of gloomy darkness that covered over her soul. The glum fog between her brows had also been burned out under the sun; she raised her head and stared at the imposing soldier standing under the light, a smile hooked itself around her lips, “At the same time, you’ve made me realize once again, how strong the goal I was chasing after was.”
“Thank you, Captain Xia, thank you for always appearing before my eyes and helping me solve conundrums that would take me a long time!”
Seeing her conquer herself once more, Xia Jinyuan slowly started to smile. He leaned forward, and a warm kiss landed on her forehead, “Ye Jian, you are my pride! You’re the best female soldier in my heart! I am proud, because of you!”
