Or she would sometimes think: I’ll have to ask mom for an extra one dollar tomorrow. That two for 50 cents dried mala sticks in town are really delicious!
She would also think: Why isn’t it Friday yet? I want to watch TV tonight!
She was still thinking about these things now, while her classmate Jian’er was thinking about joining the army and going to college!
That gap between them, it was once again a huge gap!
“Don’t you realize that you always can’t find me during winter and summer vacation? Actually, I went training with the soldiers in the army. It’s much more fulfilling than watching TV at home all day.” Ye Jian’s voice was very shallow, like gurgling water, which made An Jiaxin feel very awkward.
An Jiaxin, whose jaw was left open for a long time after listening to what she said, clicked her tongue and suddenly laughed out loud, saying, “Hahaha! Then, that time during our second year of high school, Ye Ying was basically asking for trouble when she disturbed you during National Day, wasn’t she? Didn’t I say, your marching with the instructors was so up to standard, and even looked better than the instructors? Ah, so you were already training at that time.”
“You also did the shooting, which was so cool! The political commissar even complimented you! So you have touched a gun and shot a target before!”
With today’s confession, things that An Jiaxin couldn’t make sense before became clear.
Ye Jian had not only secretly learned to grab ahold of every chance she got, but she also worked hard for her own goals.
As the conversation progressed, An Jiaxin felt a little melancholy, “I didn’t think you did so much in secret, and we seem to only see your bright and beautiful side, who knows what you were suffering behind those smiles.”
“I didn’t feel that I was suffering. I struggled for my goal. The whole process is a bit like planting seeds first and then harvesting the fruit later.” Ye Jian didn’t feel that she had suffered; on the contrary, she enjoyed the hardships.
She enjoyed the process of harvesting and looked forward to the final result. There was an unspeakable motivation that urged her not to stop, not to give up, and to get back whatever she lost and whatever she had not experienced before in her previous life. She wanted to live her current life to the fullest; she didn’t want to waste any more time.
She wrapped her arms around An Jiaxin lightly and saw the faint melancholy on her friend’s face; she lowered her voice once more, “I am different from you. If I don’t struggle, I will always be suppressed by Ye Ying. I will always live under her shadow.”
“While you, your brilliance is always something I can’t learn. You have groups of friends. All of them would always say, “An Jiaxin is very good.” You have parents who love you, and friends who are willing to play with you, and you have excellent results. Jiaxin, I want to thank you for helping me a lot in the past few years, thank you very, very much.”
Ye Jian, who was not very good at expressing her feelings, expressed all she could see in one breath. An Jiaxin’s eyes widened, she touched Ye Jian’s face with one hand, “My little Jian’er, is this really you? You’re not someone else. Why does it feel like there’s something wrong with you? You’re different from usual.”
Ye Jian, who had finally shown emotion, suddenly not sure whether she should laugh or cry, “We will be separated in a few days, and I don’t know when we can meet again. I finally feel sad and reveal my emotions, but you think I am not the same as before.”
“Student Jian’er, you ah, I think it’s better that you go back to how you were before, be a person of high standards, so I can look up to you as before.” An Jiaxin rubbed her nose and said. Her eyes were red, but she continued, “Your normal self is very good. People who know you wouldn’t need too much explanation from you, they will always believe you.”
“What’s our relationship? We’re going to be friends for life. Although you are sometimes quite mysterious, I always understand that you mean good to me, Yang Yi and the others.”
