29th May, XXXX That dream I had when I lost consciousness felt weird. It felt more like my memories than a dream. The beginning of the dream was a memory, but sand castle appearing out of thin air? That scene where grown-up Sebastian and I walk on the beach? That must be a dream. If those scenes aren’t dreams, how …

28th May, XXXX I thought I have left everything behind me, but apparently not… Sebastian’s aunt hosted a tea party today. His aunt, the grand duchess, loves parties. After taking Sebastian’s medicine, I felt much better, so I went to her party as planned.  It was a nice tea party and Sally was there, so everything went pretty well. I …

27th May, XXXX I don’t like going to balls, it’s a place for socializing and I start to feel left out whenever there are more than 6 people in a group. And a ball has hundreds of people. Of course the rule of survival is to find your own group of friends. It’s not like I don’t have friends. I …

20th May, XXXX After that day, a heavy burden seemed to have been lifted from my heart.  Weirdly, Sebastian did not break connection with me (although I suspect it may have something to do with his plan). He started to bring me books. Not encyclopedia this time, but romance novels. Books I usually read.  “Thank you.” I took over the …

10th May, XXXX I don’t understand. That day with the cup of tea and the unstained dress. I am sure my dress was stained. Then how come the tea cup sat safely on the table? That happened after the dizziness I felt.  I have a theory. The inspiration came from looking through the encyclopedia. (Yes I am reading it, albeit …

2nd May, XXXX I woke up extra early this morning. I could not sleep last night. I went to meet Mother immediately after breakfast.  “Mother, you really didn’t write to Prince Sebastian before my birthday?” “No, I did not. How many times do I have to tell you. Do I need to swear on my power to prove what I’m …

1st May, XXXX Mother agreed to break off the engagement if Sebastian and I do not get along. The next thing I have to do is to tell Sebastian. I am sure he will agree. He doesn’t care who he is going to marry. He is a workaholic. He cares about his kingdom and his subjects, but never his wife.  …

23rd April, XXXX I did some experiment on my power. As I thought, something is wrong. The limit of my power has greatly reduced. I can now only control one drop of water without getting sick and coughing out blood.  One drop. I thought controlling a tea cup of water was lame. Now guess what happens to my power? One …

12th April, XXXX My power is a bit weird.  I decided to let go of being tactful and get straight to the point. That’s the only way I could talk with Mother. (That’s what I learned after 3 failed attempts. Every time I brought up my engagement, she started to become dreamy.) “Mother, I want to break off my engagement …

7th April, XXXX Breaking off the engagement is going to be hard.  I decided to talk with Mother about my engagement with the prince today. Mother was good friend with late Queen Henrietta, Prince Sebastian’s mother. Before the two of them were married, they made a pact. Their children will marry each other. Don’t ask me why they did that, …