Zhuang Nai Nai holds Si Zheng Ting’s arm tightly, looking at him earnestly, silently pleading him to believe her. She tries to say something, but words have completely abandoned her.
The situation is too complex; some things cannot be expressed clearly.
He never brings up the past; he likes to pretend he didn’t care.
But now, Zhuang Nai Nai finally realizes he has actually been hiding his own wounds.
All she can do right now is to hang onto him.
Si Zheng Ting lowers his head and looks at the hand that is gripping his arm.
He knows that Gu Xing Shan is trying to provoke them to fight, and that not all that she has been saying is true.
His head tells him to not to believe Gu Xing Shan, to believe Zhuang Nai Nai, but his heart is swayed.
What she said five years ago ring inside his ears once more: ‘I don’t like you anymore….’
That sentence is the biggest thorn in his heart right now.
He fists his hands as he looks at Zhuang Nai Nai.
His heart feels like it is being cut by thousands of blades; it hurts for him to even breathe.
Everything that happened after their reunion flashes inside his head.
In order to save the Gu family, she followed him around and basically stalked him.
After that, she tried to run away.
Even their marriage was obtained through intrigue on his part.
She refused to share a bed with him during their wedding night.
All of the above clearly show where she stands.
He didn’t want to let go of her, so he keeps compromising. He was even willing to forget the fact that she picked 300,000 yuan over him.
A question keeps popping inside his head, one that he would like to direct to her: Do you love me, Zhuang Nai Nai? What am I, inside your heart?
He never did have the courage to ask her that.
He was afraid of the answer.
He carefully hid all of his wounds, probably hoping that he would forget about them once enough time passes. Who would have thought that the wounds would become worse instead?
He looks at Zhuang Nai Nai. When he sees the anxious look on her face, he smiles, sardonically.
He knows that although she did not love him in the past, she does have some feelings for him now.
But now, it is as though a little voice is whispering inside his head: See? The most important person for her will never be you!
That is such a heart-wrenching discovery!
A cold feeling slithers through his heart; even his limbs feel numb.
He looks at her as he forcefully shrugs her hand away.
Zhuang Nai Nai staggers backwards, standing there, stunned.
They are clearly so close to each other, but why does it feels like they are separated by mountains and seas.
There will always be a gap between them, one that cannot be crossed.
Her eyes turn red, aggrieved. She thought Si Zheng Ting would turn around and stalk away again, like last time, but she is wrong.
He remains where he is.
His voice is icy cold as he points at the weeping Gu Xing Shan, “Take her out, Housekeeper.”