Chapter 200: She is so Lonely

Si Jing Yu did not think Zhuang Nai Nai would get so emotional.

Even though Zhuang Nai Nai took the money back then and did not pass the test, it was wrong for her mother to test her on the first place.

Besides, who in this world would not be tempted when it comes to money?  She was so young back then, it was natural for her to get tempted.

Si Jing Yu looks at Zhuang Nai Nai with a frown.  Although she is poor, she seems to have a lot of pride.  Perhaps, what her mother did to her back then took a toll on her pride.

After a moment, Si Jing Yu opens her mouth once again, “I am not asking you to forgive her.  after all, everyone must own up to their own mistakes.  I just want to tell you that my mother has never looked down on you.  I would also like to apologize on her behalf.”

Will her apology let Zhuang mama turn to how she used to be?

Zhuang Nai Nai’s eyes turn moist.  If that will help her mother turn normal, she is willing to forgive everyone.

She gets up and walks towards the door.  She hears Si Jing Yu calling for her, “Nai Nai.”

She turns around.

Si Jing Yu hesitates a little before saying, “I hope you can keep the thing between me and Shi Jin Yan a secret.  I don’t want to worry Zheng Ting and my mom.”

Zhuang Nai Nai nods.  Then, she lowers her head and walks out of the door.

Under her dazed mind, she makes her way to her own room.

The day slowly turns dark.

The light inside the room is dim.  She sits on the couch and stares blankly into thin air.

Her tears suddenly fall.

She has no idea why she is suddenly so sad.  She has forced herself to be strong for so many years, why did she suddenly lose control?

Perhaps, if she had not been so youthful and precocious back then, Ding Mengya wouldn’t have hired people to do that to her mother.

Perhaps, if she had not chased after Si Zheng Ting back then, she wouldn’t have to go through what she did.

Perhaps if she……

Unfortunately, there is no ‘perhaps’ in this world.

Zhuang Nai Nai buries her head on her knees in grief.

The sorrow that she has suppressed for years finally rushes back to her.  She fists her hands.  The room is so big and she is the only one inside.  How lonely….

 

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After ending the call, Si Zheng Ting walks out of the study.  He sees Si Jing Yu and Shi Jin Yan watching the tv in the living room.  There are maids bustling about, serving food on the dining table.  They can eat soon.

But…… where is Zhuang Nai Nai?

He looks around for her.  Remembering her hurting her ankle earlier on, he purses his lips before putting his phone inside his pocket.  Then, he climbs up the stairs, heading to their room.

He pushes open the door.  The room is dark.  He cannot tell where Zhuang Nai Nai is.  Just as he is about to turns on the light, he hears a weeping sound.

His hand stops midair.

He turns around incredulously, perfecting catching Zhuang Nai Nai’s position from the sound she makes.  He walks to the couch and turns on the tableside lamp.

Under the golden light, he sees Zhuang Nai Nai wiping her tears while more fall down.

Perhaps she is too lonely, perhaps she is too depressed; Zhuang Nai Nai cannot find it in her to act at the moment.  She looks at Si Zheng Ting, suddenly finding the urge to tell him everything.

 

 

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